Since I was 11 years old, I have struggled with porn addiction. I grew up in a religious household where pornography is forbidden, so I always knew this was something I didn't want in my life.

My first attempts to control it were through greater involvement in my religious community, but that got me four months at best. I later tried a plant-based macrobiotic diet to address the PMO (porn, masturbation, orgasm) problem, with only limited success. At 18, I began practicing yoga and qigong. That helped me abstain for seven months, the longest stretch I had managed up to that point, but I eventually relapsed. Still, I noticed I did better with yoga, qigong, and meditation than without them, and through my early twenties I managed occasional multi-month streaks.

At 21, I experienced my first psychosis and was placed on olanzapine for a year. The medication made my compulsivity worse. Around the same time, I began neurofeedback in an effort to overcome the addiction. Practitioners told me that once the cingulate gyrus was trained, the addictive tendency should disappear. Over the following years I spent between $5,000 and $10,000 on sessions. The QEEG eventually confirmed that the cingulate gyrus had been trained, yet the addiction remained. Neurofeedback improved my mental endurance but did nothing for the compulsion itself. It took another four years after starting the medication before I could achieve even a four-month streak again.

At 25, I discovered a qigong routine that gave me the highest energy levels of my life. For an entire year, I woke up at 4 a.m. and stayed active until 8 or 10 p.m. High energy has always felt linked to stronger willpower for me, and it made abstinence noticeably easier.

Unfortunately, at 26 I had a second psychosis and was put back on olanzapine. Looking back, I believe the combination of intense qigong, a three-month fast, and a rigorous religious prayer manual overstimulated my system. I managed three months of abstinence that year before the medication caused everything to fall apart again.

From ages 26 to 30, I cycled through olanzapine, lithium, Abilify, Vraylar, and eventually back to olanzapine. After that three-month stretch at 26, the best I could manage was about one month around age 28. By the end of that period, I was relapsing every three days or so, sometimes more often.

At 30, I began using Bob Beck's Brain Tuner on the recommendation of a qigong master I trained with. I used it once a day, just one 20-minute session, usually before bed. Since starting the Brain Tuner, I have not fallen back into PMO. It has now been over nine months, even while remaining on olanzapine.

A $260 Brain Tuner accomplished what a hundred neurofeedback sessions and thousands of dollars could not. I also worked with multiple therapists who specialize in porn addiction, and none of them succeeded either.

What stands out most is how little else I'm doing to maintain this progress. On olanzapine I sleep half the day, which used to be a major trigger. I barely have the energy for qigong, tai chi, or much exercise at all. I don't use porn blockers, and I haven't needed periods of internet restriction. I still fulfill my basic religious prayer obligations, but I'm careful not to overdo it because of the psychosis risk. I also have no girlfriend or wife, and I'm technically a virgin.

In conclusion, the Bob Beck Brain Tuner is the one thing that has worked for me, after everything else I tried. After years of desperate effort, I finally feel free. There is no longer any willpower battle. God willing, the war in my head is over.